My journey home was fairly average. I managed to exhaust all my available cash sources on my last day, and so had a complete stranger pay my taxi fare to the airport. I said in my last entry that leaving Levuka was the saddest moment of my life – but boarding the plane to leave Fiji? It’s hard to pick. I kept my chin up though, and evidently some of the Bula Spirit had rubbed off on me at some point, ’cause I was disgustingly friendly to everyone – chatting to complete strangers, telling airport staff to “have a nice day!”, offering my tic-tacs around.
The flight connections all went smoothly, and I arrived on time in Edinburgh (having successfully and legally gotten 2kg of pounded yaqona through Customs! Hurrah!) to be greeted at Arrivals by my family - I honestly didn’t recognise my little brother, he’s lost a lot of weight and grown even taller too.
It was nice to come home. I had honestly missed Scotland and my friends and family, and it was fantastic to get to play piano and trumpet again. However my happiness at being home was significantly less than my sadness at not being in Fiji, and the novelty wore off pretty quickly. Things were so different. Superficial things like new shops and different furniture in my house and my food tastes. My relationships with many people had changed – most for the better, but I now seem to have two less best friends than I had when I left. And of course things that I wish had changed that hadn’t – my house is still full of clutter, the shops are still expensive, etc etc. (And it turns out that the cliche of all cliches is true – I’ve changed… (sorry, had to be said))
I can’t seem to break some of my old habits. Some are good – I’ve been getting up early, playing guitar, and I’ve lost all desire to go shopping which used to be a big vice – but I also can’t stop doing the creepy eyebrow raise, or making peace/up-yours signs in photographs, or speaking Fijian, even though I know no one understands
I’m at university now. Finally I am a real live student. I was really needing a change of scenery by the time it came to start term, plus if I hadn’t had to be getting ready for university I’d probably have spent my time mourning not being in Levuka any more. It was strange to be leaving again so soon after only just having come back. I like it here though, I think I’ll be happy, and I’m finally starting to get used to being surrounded by English accents.
Anyway, I just wanted to tie this blog up, and I think I’ve said enough. Sorry for all the cliches and pompous and whatnot. To everyone who read my blog and left comments – thank you, it made this blog so much easier to write knowing that people were actually reading and enjoying it.
And I guess that’s all. Moce.




















































